Disney’s Star Wars, spoilers be warned.

While I understand that people are desperate to accept what happened in Disney’s Star Wars, I would like to take a moment and explain why someone like me, a life long Star Wars fan can’t accept it.

You can call me old, miserable and someone who refuses to change and I won’t disagree with you. I won’t resort to name calling either.

I was born in 1978 a year after A New Hope came out, it wasn’t until the release of Return of the Jedi in 1983 that my love begun.

My mum let me watch A New Hope and then took me to see a double bill of the Empire Strikes Back and ROTJ.

The moment the crawl came up on ANH I was hooked, for the next 30 years I would collect anything to do with Star Wars, I wanted to be Han Solo, I wanted to find my Princess Leia.

Lucas and Spielberg changed what I watched and loved from SW to Indiana Jones to Willow to the Goonies and so on.

As I got older my tastes changed I watched more grown up movies and loved them too, my tastes changed but my love for Star Wars didn’t.

When Lucas announced the prequels I was their at midnight in May ’99 for the first showing of the Phantom Menace at my cinema and went again the following two days.

In 2002 a friend got me a ticket to go to one of the early showings of Attack of the Clones in Leicester Square and I went a few more times. I was there in 2005 for the midnight showing of Revenge of the Sith.

The prequels were decent movies held together by a great story. The problem they suffered was poor script writing, Lucas had help on the original trilogy and clearly needed help again.

People would call me a nerd, a geek, a sad person and yes I am all of those but I never cared.

My son was born in 2011 and we gave him the middle name of Han, we thought it was cool and it was.

When Disney bought LucasArts I was excited, finally someone was going to finish the Star Wars Saga, the countless material they could use.

JJ Abrams was picked, I liked what he did with Star Trek, but I should have listened to my Trekkie mum, she didn’t like what he did.

The first trailer of the Force Awakens was released and I got goosebumps, Han Solo appeared and a smile was etched across my face.

Then the spoilers arrived, Han Solo was rumoured to be killed off, surely they wouldn’t, surely they couldn’t but they did. Who’s fault was it?

I should add that not for one second could I believe that Solo would leave his wife that he loved so dearly just because his son went a bit nuts, but I sucked it up, then she tells him to bring back their son and ‘this woman’ who he happily left because of their son decides to try and gets a lightsaber through the guts instead.

I cried I’ll admit it.

But I understood this was JJ having to make a tough decision.

But then two years later The Last Jedi appeared. I will admit I have liked Rian Johnson movies and would never crucify the guy like some. But TLJ was a mess of a film, people say it was a grown up SW film, but who asked for a grown up SW film? Wasn’t that what Rogue One was supposed to be?

Everything that had been built up in TFA was ripped up and changed to allow Johnson to make the film HE wanted.

What we were given was a two and a half hour movie of cat and mouse, one dimensional characters and cheap deaths. To Johnson and Kathleen Kennedy they probably thought it was cleaver but it wasn’t, I understand there are people who won’t agree with me and that’s cool.

I was left so disappointed with TLJ that my 40^th birthday present of the Millennium Falcon tattoo has not been done.

Disney knew it was a disaster which is why JJ was brought back to finish the story, instead dividing the original and current fans even more.

I haven’t seen the Rise of Skywalker, I can’t bring myself to sit through the disappointment of another wasted Star Wars film.

My issues have always been the destruction of the original characters.

Luke a miserable hermit who hates himself.

Solo a selfish man who ran off when the going got tough.

Leia, so tough that she doesn’t trust anyone accept some new random character invented by Johnson.

It goes deeper, as I writer why would allow someone to write the sequel to my book without giving them guidance or at least tell them what is going to happen.

Episodes 1,2,3,4,5, and 6 stories were all written by one person.

E7 by JJ and friends

E8 Rian only

E9 JJ and friends

It felt like the game you played at school where you write several lines of a story, fold over the piece of paper leaving the last few words so the next person could add something and so on.

That’s a mess JJ and Rian should have been responsible for all 3, not shared, they should have worked together from the opening scene to the final one.

I don’t even mind the new characters:

Finn was my favourite but then Rian seemed to kick him to the curb.

Poe was effectively an idiot in TLJ.

Rey I liked but her character went from 0-100 in an unbelievable way.

And Kylo… Adam Driver is an excellent actor but it felt like they were trying to make him Darth Vader, when he should have been more.

That’s the problem I liked the characters but wanted more depth, anything just more!

The original characters unfortunately out performed the new ones, which didn’t help.

Personally I would preferred a trilogy set a 100 odd years later, with maybe Luke being the only human character to return, but hey that’s me.

Disney, JJ and Johnson could not give us a moment like Vader being Luke’s dad, Leia being Luke’s sister. As for deaths none were even close to Mace Windu. No lightsaber duel was better than Empires, Revenge, Menace or Clones.

I don’t hate Disney and I never will, I respect people who liked them, they just to me were not Star Wars films they were light imitations made by a studio piggybacking on the success created by someone else.

Look I don’t like the Godfather films and I know I’m in the minority.

To me they were OK, a reboot that failed to live up to expectations.

Look at what Creed did, it took Rocky and rebooted it and made you love Rocky again.

I wish they had given the trilogy to one person! To one person who would have used source material and would have asked Lucas for help.

I want Indian Jones 5, but the question is do I want Disney’s Indiana Jones 5?

But please don’t tell me or older fans like me that I am not allowed to be disheartened by them.

The sequels can exist but to me they’ll always be known as Disney’s Star Wars.

Thank you and May the Force be with you.